This morning I laid out the same spread I used yesterday (yes, I shuffled, and since I still used the "stir the cards in a big face-down pile and then grab some with your eyes closed" method, forgetting to do so wouldn't account for the return of the Emperor. Heh.)
Today was about being energized by being decisive (yes I'm going to change the headlight bulb on my car, no I'm not going to get that gorgeous journal that's on sale (bills are due), yes, I'm going to go to the grocery store on the way home instead of stopping for fast food.) I also pushed through the next step of the Desire Mapping process even though it felt overwhelming and kind of made my head spin.
The Ace of Wands, meanwhile, is meant to indicate new projects and new ideas. Kadollan and I talked, albeit briefly, about the idea of doing some kind of "planner summit" (by which we mean geeking out about our planners around her kitchen table with coffee and washi tape, and quite possibly cake) and what that might look like.
The thing to calm me down is the Queen of Wands, which made me think that the best way to stay steady today would be to just do the things I need to do rather than
worrying about mulling over them first. I think I did okay at that one, although along with dynamic action I got a solid dose of the "restless antsy" thing going on. I think for quite a bit of the day I felt like I was around five or six years old and being told I had to do write-offs instead of going out to play.
The Queen of Pentacles in the "Dregs" position, though, gave me fits trying to figure her out. Ultimately, I decided that she was there in her "business woman" persona, and realized that the best and healthiest option for me this afternoon was to leave on time, make sure to get groceries on the way home, and let go of pushing myself past my limit just so that the paycheck would be a little bigger.
And in the end? The trick to keeping it all together, it still seems, is organization.
I'm working on that bit:
|The planning "system", deconstructed. Some days, when I'm stuck at my desk at work on the phone, taking my entire planning system apart and then putting it back together again is oddly soothing.|
The other way that I've been coping at work this week? I've started really utilizing my desk space as an altar and shrine. I figure, I'm spending the lion's share of most weekdays there, and that's where I tend to be the most focused and productive, so why not? I mean, I won't be burning incense or candles there in the middle of the office for everyone to see, but something like this goes unremarked upon:
|Why yes, fox is my primary animal energy, why do you ask?|
See you tomorrow!